Nomiya brings Yamada back to Fujiwara Design where Miwako and Yamazaki remark how Yamada stinks of alchohol due to her excessive drinking the previous night. Nomiya notices that there are cans of beer lying around and asks them if they had also held a drinking party here. Miwako offers to drive the car upon seeing how tired Nomiya looks so that they can send Yamada back and explain things to her father for spending the night outside.Miwako uses her eloquence to help Yamada escape from her father's scolding. Nomiya thanks her for helping out or else it would have been a disaster if he had sent Yamada home just like that. Yamazaki asks Nomiya if anything had happened between him and Yamada but the latter says that he has not met up to their expectations in this matter. Besides, it is bad luck for him to be used as a cushion by Yamada to reduce the impact of a failed relationship. When Miwako wants to probe further, she finds that Nomiya has fallen asleep after being tortured by Yamada for the whole night.
Meanwhile, Mayama and Morita are having breakfast by the river where the latter says that he would like to go to Fujiwara Design again since he enjoyed himself. Mayama recollects that in the morning, Nomiya had called Miwako for help to send Yamada home and that they had spent the night at Yokohama. Mayama remembers that Nomiya has a special penchance for the ferris wheel there but the latter remarked that it was better to look at it from the outside than to take a ride on it.
Love is usually depicted as a bed of roses in TV and magazines. Why is my relationship so detestable and emotionally taxing?
Yamada is in the university's pottery workshop where she loses concentration and spoils another creation. She can't help thinking that when someone is happy, another person would be unhappy. As such, she is not sure whether she should wish for her own happiness or Mayama's since she loves him.
Suddenly, Yamada sees Morita in front of her when he pokes at her forehead. She complains about Morita feigning his injuries which made her worry for nothing but he stops her from rambling on and tells her that she was the one who made him and Mayama worried. Morita scolds her for not knowing how lucky she is and that she should not abandon herself to despair since they care for her. Yamada bursts into tears while holding Morita's hand and points out the things he had done which made her worried too like how he left for the US without a word. With each example Yamada gives, Morita says nothing but sorry. Later, he sends her home, hand in hand which makes Yamada feel that she will pray for Morita's happiness since she can't do the same for herself.
Takemoto bumps into Hanamoto and suddenly asks him why he became a teacher. Hanamoto reveals that in the past, he used to teach Harada and Rika theory-based subjects even though the two of them were talented in artistic subjects. Since then, he felt that it was happy to help them so he became a teacher to support others. Takemoto admires Hanamoto for being able to find where he belongs with his own strength and reveals that he asked Hagu about her plans after graduation. Hagu wants to return to her hometown and be a farmer while continuing to produce new works. She just hopes to earn enough money for basic needs and art materials instead of staying in Tokyo and being a burden to Hanamoto. Takemoto feels ashamed for not knowing what he wants to do when he sees how Hagu has already planned her future.
Morita goes to Hanamoto's office and finds Hagu in the midst of creating 2 paintings for upcoming art awards. He gets angry and rushes to find Hanamoto. Morita questions why Hanamoto is not stopping Hagu from producing such mediocre stuff instead of doing greater things with her talent. However, Hanamoto says that this is up to Hagu and it's better for her to decide what to do instead of forcing her to achieve greater heights. Hanamoto had often wondered if he is actually using Hagu to do things beyond his abilities and achieve dreams on his behalf and isn't sure whether this is the right thing to do.
Harada Design is moving into the same building as Fujiwara Design where Mayama is teased for his obsession with Rika. Nomiya says that the reason why he dislikes Mayama could be that the latter resembles the past Nomiya too much and serves as a painful memory. Miwako reveals that Mayama also feels uncomfortable in Nomiya's presence because he is a constant reminder to Mayama that he is still an uncompleted adult. However, Nomiya says that Yamada still prefers Mayama despite this.
At school, Yamada's teacher asks her if something is bothering her and says that she might find the answer she's seeking by continuing with her production of the pottery. This gets Yamada hyped up and she scares the teacher by using the expensive clay.
Takemoto goes to Hanamoto's office and finds that Hagu is crying due to her frustration over her inability to produce something to her satisfaction. He decides not to console her since nothing will help in this case. Takemoto wonders if being unable to achieve your aim is more painful than being unable to find a goal...
The question which Takemoto had raised strikes a chord with me. Well, I'm probably in the category of not knowing what I want to do just like Takemoto but there were times in the past when I had a clear goal but I just couldn't achieve it. Both situations are painful but I feel that without a goal, the helplessness and anxiety in trying to change the situation is more evident. Being unable to attain what you want to do just makes me feel frustrated and angry at myself for having the abilities. It's certainly not good to fall in either category.
This can also be applied in Nomiya and Mayama's love-hate relationship. They admire each other for their similarities and what their ideal form of themselves but that also serves as a reminder of their own vulnerabilities. Mayama knows that Nomiya is what he aspires to be in future but whenever he sees Nomiya, it just reminds him that he is still a half-baked grown up. On the other hand, Nomiya admires Mayama for having the qualities which he ditched years ago in his pursuit to be an adult but that also serves as a reminder that he used to be as childish and rash in the past. You know that you have a goal but you also realise that it's not possible to return to what you were or force yourself to do something which you cannot achieve at the moment.
Morita's scene with Yamada was quite touching. The care and concern shown for each other is based on their strong friendship. Although Yamada may scold Morita and he may tease her all the time, they know deep down that they care for each other.
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